Do it Anyway
Posted on 11/13/2014
TBT such a strange photo. Smile for the camera they say. The confusion on my face says it all as my mind grapples. I just buried my mom a few hours ago. Do I smile in the face of pain, cry?
Shout? Run? What’s the right Christian response? Do I have to be strong – Keep it together I think. Why? Make them proud. Who and for what? I’m confused. It’s a confusing moment. I’m at a loss for words, my tear box is empty, my throat is hoarse and all I feel is confusion. And you know what? It’s okay. It is okay to be in your garden of despair like Jesus was and say “Hey! Can this whole thing go to someone else?” It’s okay to be like the disciples and say, “Lord, help our faith”. It is not a disappointment to God to need Him, to be frail, to reach out when your arms can’t reach up. This is why He says so often Fear Not for He knew we would have times of fear.
If you are a little unsure what to do, how to do it and why even bother. If you want to hide and run because it seems too hard. Walk through ANYWAY. With your overwhelmed heart and confused mind move forward ANYWAY.
Faith is not the abandonment of feelings it’s the advancements we choose to make in spite of them.
So yeah. My face says I’m confused but my actions say in the face of it I’m taking this pic to remind myself, that though I felt alone the truth was and still is I’m never alone in my despair. God always has support to help us hold on and go through. We just have to be willing to receive it. One foot in front of the other. Whether long strides or baby steps. On a cane or or crutches. Walk forward today, shaking and trembling but my dear whatever you do – walk forward. #pastorsara #confusedbutcourageous